For how much longer can I hide? And the thing is, I know now that I am hiding, it has become conscious in me. Looking back as an observer on my process it is clear now what makes me stagger and when. I always get to a certain point, when I feel my power and the harmony and unity with the universe; such a wonderful feeling! It is like becoming something new, or a rebirth, a new part of me comes forward smiling that has always been there but unnurtured. So when I am in the process of rebirth seeing my future self coming closer and closer to me I get scared and stop. This is a pattern now. So I get scared of what?! Me changing for the better, my dreams coming true scares me??? But I want it badly!!! So I need to push through the birth channel. I have made some changes in my everyday pattern and have asked for support from my Guide and Mastermind Partner. But I need to make it myself. I have made the Decision, I am going to make it and meet with my future self.